Too much freedom…abort…abort!

Damn. Adulthood definitely has its sucky moments. At the beginning of my Phd, I KNEW I was going to be a professor and rock at it. Bam. One year later, I KNEW that was off the table. I enjoyed this perspective until approximately 5 months ago, when I realized ‘oh god, I am actually going to have to do one of those things’. I always used to make fun of the people who described graduate school as sheltered and easy, it is definitely not easy, but knowing exactly what you’re going to be doing for the next four years down to what desk you will be doing it at? Pretty damn reassuring.

I’m trying to hold onto those moments of certainty I had before. What I wanted to do and why. Trying not to succumb to the ‘shit I’ll do anything other than this’ mentality. That coupled with writing 8 hours a day doesn’t always go so well. Or at all. I eat a lot of chocolate these days. Which is good, because stress makes me skinny. Sigh. I just keep telling myself that this upcoming freedom is what I wanted, nay, what I have worked my ass off for for the last ten years, and it is going to be awesome, and sometimes, I even believe it. It will be even easier to believe when I get back from this run…

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About adventuresunplugged

The world is a really cool place. I moved to Zurich almost three years ago to start my PhD, and have really enjoyed the different opportunites living close to the Swiss alps offered. This blog is about some of my adventures, climbing, mountaineering, rock climbing, traveling... life in general! Wow, haven't updated this bad boy in some time! While the above is still true I have gone on to finish the PhD, so that is Dr Unplugged to you. I also have landed a job in Switzerland and will be shortly moving to Geneva. Clearly I have some adventures ahead left to explore with you guys along for company!
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